Looking back

I saw a lady
Longing for acceptance
looking for love
asking for forgiveness.

I saw a lady
full of pain, full of worries
full of hatred, full of insecurities
full of mistakes, asking for a change.

I saw a lady
full of demise
full of sorrow, full of hurt
full of uncertainties and immaturity.

As I step forward
I saw the lady
striving hard
awaiting for a miracle to happen.

And now,
as i sit here quietly
tears fell down my face
as i see myself in the mirror.

I am seeing the lady now
full of strength and maturity
full of passion and love
full of wisdom and knowledge.

I smiled as i wiped my tears
I smiled as i recall all my failures
I smiled as i think about the future
I smiled as i overcome new challenges.

I thanked God for putting me into this test
I thanked God for letting me fail
I thanked God for allowing my heart to be broken
I thanked God for putting me into dismay.

For I know in every test, I will learn something
For after the fall, i will manage to get up.
For after every heartbreak i will love again
for after the dismay, there is contentment.

As I glanced through the window
I imagined the lady in the future
Wiser, stronger, and braver
Matured, loving and full of faith...in God. :)