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I've been counting the days
since I've last seen your face.
I've been hoping and praying,
wishing - one day you'll come back.

As emptiness set in
And as the tears fell down
I wish that you were here
to hug me tight and wipe my tears out.

Para Sa'yo

Nagsimula ang lahat sa tuksuhan....

May nagsabing: You look good together. Nagkibit balikat lang ako at umayrowl (eyeroll).

Meron pang ibang nagsabing, Boyfriend mo? magkahawig kayo--nakita ko ang palihim na ngiti mo nung mga panahong yun, pero pinili ko pa ding manahimik at wag makielam.

Takot kase akong ihakbang paharap ang mga paa ko. Takot akong i-entertain ang pagmamahal na meron ako para sa'yo. Takot akong mahalin ka at masasaktan ka lang dahil sa pabago-bago kong anyo pag-uugali. Takot akong magsama ng isa pang tao sa munting mundong ginagalawan ko.

Mahirap na. Baka mali na naman. Masasaktan lang ako. Masasaktan ka lang. Ayoko na. Baka isa ka lang tanso na nagpapanggap na ginto.

Pero..mas natakot akong harapin yung araw na hindi na kita tuluyang makita.
Yung araw na, hindi na kita makakausap at makukulit.
Yung araw na hindi ko makikita sa mga mata mo ang kasiyahan.
yung araw na....lumayo ka na ng tuluyan sa akin......

Kaya naglakas-loob ako upang tanungin ka. Matagal na araw mo din akong pinahirapan. Nilito mo ko sa mga magulo mong pahayag. Gusto ko nang isipin na assuming lang ako, na baka nga PAKIRAMDAM at PANINIWALA ko lang yun. Hanggang sa mapagtanto ko, nadulas ka nga pala sa isang post sa blogosperyo! *wink

And the rest was history..........^_^

Matagal na mga araw, segundo at minuto na din ang lumipas. Ilang okasyon na din ang nalampasan naten. Masaya ko na patuloy tayong masaya at nagmamahalan sa munti nating relasyon *blasssss*

At dahil hindi ka naman nagba-blog ngayon, hindi mo ko mabibintangan na korni ^_^

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Feeling mushy today after the good walk and talk yesterday with Mr. Tertel :)

The day I fell inlove

Don't know what to do whenever you are near, Don't know what to say, My heart is flowing with tears, When you pass by I could fly, Every minute, every second of the day, I dream of you in the most SPECIAL way, You're beside me all the time all the time.....DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO by: Ric Segreto

It was months ago when I was blinded with such an unwanted attraction. It was the same time when my heart has seriously taken over me. I refused to eat and sleep. Even my "ME" time was ruined because of those unwanted feelings. Worst of it, my closest friend also likes him so I distanced myself from him. Days passed by and the feelings started to grew deeper. Maybe, that's the power of love - it flows down into your system, without you even knowing it. One day you'll just see yourself constantly thinking about that certain person. And before you know it - LOVE has contagiously taken over you.

Yeah, I kept it as a secret. Nobody knew about it. Not even my bestest friend, not even him. I just plunged into that feeling and then ran into our house and think about it - big time. I became mad about it. I became so attached to that feeling and I get so dependent and I started wanting his attention more. But it came to my senses that the feeling might be wrong. And it came to me that it was not meant to be. That it was just all me, and I was only probably dreaming all along.

I was so down by that time. Suddenly, after a month of believing that a love built amidst oceans and seas will work - I realized that I was just dreaming. I was so pathetic to believe that magic is really there, that once you summoned to the sky - to God, He will be mine. But, unfortunately, God did not replied any single word. He just sent me a blank message.

Fortunately, I managed to let it go and move on. It took me a lot of courage and loneliness. But in return, God gave me someone better. Someone who loves me whole-heartedly, someone who sticked by my side thru thick and thin. Someone who loved me for being ME.
--entry from my Journal dated June 12,2009.

Good things comes to those who wait.

Nawawala ako

Mga kapwa blogero,

Nitong hapon ng August 11, 2009, ay nawala ako. Hindi ko po maalala ang daan pabalik sa bahay namin. Galing ako sa lugar na pinagtatrabahuan ko pero ng ibaba ako ng service ko sa kanto ng kinatitirikan ng aming mansyon, napagdesisyunan kong sabihin sa sarili kong nawawala ako. Nag-away po kami ni b1 kagabi sa kadahilanang ayaw nyang tumigil sa paghaharvest ng kanyang mga pananim sa farmtown. Nagalit po sya at tuluyan nang nakipaghiwalay saken. Sinabi nya po saken na "Crops will go to waste if i will not harvest this". Hindi ko po kinaya kaya ngayon po ay mababa ang presyon ng dugo ko ---pero nawawala pa din po ako. May nakita akong computer shop sa may kanto (pangalawang kanto mula sa binabaan ko ng service), at nag-online ako. Nagpasya akong gumawa ng post dito sa blog ko. Sa kadahilanang nawawala ako. Hindi ko po maalala ang pangalan ko dahil nga nawawala ako. Wag po kayong magalit saken, nagmahal lang ako at pinagpalit ni b1 sa farmtown. Hindi ko lang talaga kinaya. Kaya nagdesisyon akong sabihin sa sarili kong nawawala talaga ako. Kung makikita nyo po ako na pakalat-kalat sa kalsada, tawagan po ninyo ako sa numerong ito: 050.857.96.10. Salamat po.

At higit sa lahat, gusto kong sabihin kay B1 na mahal na mahal ko sya. Advance happy monthsary saten at sa farm mo. Ay mali, hiwalay na nga pala tayo dahil sa farm mo.

Bujoi..^^,






















Grabe, pinawisan ako ng malapot sa pag-iisip kung paano ko bibiguin at ililigaw ang sarili ko. Ewan ko ba. Sa hindi ko maipaliwanag na dahilan eh yan ang naisipan ko ipost. Pasintabi lang po sa pwedeng masagasaan. Joke joke lang po =). Pero totoong mantsari namin ni b1 bukas. At hindi pa po kame hiwalay. Dahil nakakapagod po magkwento na naghiwalay kami ngayon, tpos bukas eh magkakabalikan kami ulit. =)) Peace out.