The day I fell inlove

Don't know what to do whenever you are near, Don't know what to say, My heart is flowing with tears, When you pass by I could fly, Every minute, every second of the day, I dream of you in the most SPECIAL way, You're beside me all the time all the time.....DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO by: Ric Segreto

It was months ago when I was blinded with such an unwanted attraction. It was the same time when my heart has seriously taken over me. I refused to eat and sleep. Even my "ME" time was ruined because of those unwanted feelings. Worst of it, my closest friend also likes him so I distanced myself from him. Days passed by and the feelings started to grew deeper. Maybe, that's the power of love - it flows down into your system, without you even knowing it. One day you'll just see yourself constantly thinking about that certain person. And before you know it - LOVE has contagiously taken over you.

Yeah, I kept it as a secret. Nobody knew about it. Not even my bestest friend, not even him. I just plunged into that feeling and then ran into our house and think about it - big time. I became mad about it. I became so attached to that feeling and I get so dependent and I started wanting his attention more. But it came to my senses that the feeling might be wrong. And it came to me that it was not meant to be. That it was just all me, and I was only probably dreaming all along.

I was so down by that time. Suddenly, after a month of believing that a love built amidst oceans and seas will work - I realized that I was just dreaming. I was so pathetic to believe that magic is really there, that once you summoned to the sky - to God, He will be mine. But, unfortunately, God did not replied any single word. He just sent me a blank message.

Fortunately, I managed to let it go and move on. It took me a lot of courage and loneliness. But in return, God gave me someone better. Someone who loves me whole-heartedly, someone who sticked by my side thru thick and thin. Someone who loved me for being ME.
--entry from my Journal dated June 12,2009.

Good things comes to those who wait.