Trying to hold a CACTUS with your bare hands

At dahil may sakit ako at hindi makaisip ng mga bagay-bagay ng matino, may nagbulong saken na isang batang mataba na irepost ko itech.:). Ginawa ko tong wento na ito noong bagong dating pa lang ako dito sa "Land of the Rising smell".


I met this guy in my workplace. Being the only trainee that is just busy writing down my notes, he just completely put me aside and saud to me that I should just continue taking down those notes and he’ll teach me about everything some other time. I was extremely challenged by that time! and I do started to hate him by that rude attitude he had thrown me. So, the next day, we are still assigned to the same station. I am well prepared so i dared him to ask me about everything in that station. I managed to outgrew him so he was pleased, while, me, I was still truthfully oh so mad at him.

But, at the same time, I also grew intrigued by this guy. Maybe, I thought, I can do something to change the way he treats other people and I tried to gather informations of how he was really as person whenever he is not at our workplace. I learned so many things and I proved that he’s not that bad at all!

When I was about to give up on how to become close friends to him, the universe conspire and it brought me the moment I’ve been waiting for! We became friends, merely brothers and sisters. We share to each other our problems, and talk about anything under the sun. Time came that I was so down and he was there to bring me up and tell me words of encouragement.

But, I fell for him. Something that I know I should not do in the first place. I really hate myself for asking for too much because i know that its so impossible. We can only remain as friends, and i’m aware of that. But one day, he told me that he was also starting to fall for me. I can’t believe it and at the same time I dont know also how to supress those feelings that I have for him. So later on, we became a couple. We’re happy at first, although I know that we should have slowed things up first before jumping into this relationship of ours. we still pushed thru. I don’t really care how will other people think and react about us. But, he’s the one who got affected by everything and asked for a space after a month of being together. So i did let him go. I can still feel that he’s still feeling the same way to me. After a month, I tried to beg him back, but I learned the very reason why he asked for a space, Its because he cheated on me. it hurts like hell., really. But, eventually, we managed to be friends again. We talked and laughed like we never even entered such a relationship. Though we are friends again, i can still feel the pain that he put me through. I can’t even understand why I have to suffer this way.

So, i grew mad at him. Whenever I see him, I just pretend that I dont know him at all. I thought I’m not going to forgive him again about everything. But, time has been so i tried my best to understand our situation.I also want to cope up with everything. We became, eventually friends again. But, when things are getting better for us again, time became so trying and a good opportunity was once again given to me. I was given the opportunity to go abroad to find a stable job for me and my family. I heared about it merely a week or two before my departure. So I gather up all the courage and decided to talk to him once and for all and have a quality time with him. I hate goodbye’s- but I don’t really want this good opportunity to just pass by. I really miss him, but, maybe it was God’s will that’s why I’m sent in this place. He’ll just always remain special no matter what